Don't give it away.

I don't know if it's because my virginity was taken from me or how I was raised or what, but one thing I will never understand is why girls just give their viginity up like it's no big deal. Just like I will never understand why it's a "bad thing" for a guy to be older than 16 and still a virgin. I "slept around" as people like to say, but I never planned to, never enjoyed it, ect. After I was raped, I started dating my best friend who was there with me through it all. Hell, I took his virginity and he was 17. He was there for me for a year, which at 15/16 is a long time. When we broke up, a lot about my virginity being gone, better yet that I didn't choose for it to be gone, started to mess with me. I have Caiven to show for my mistakes, and I love him dearly, but I'm always reminded when I look at him of the things that happened that brought him into this world. So, there are people like me that had no choice, and then there are people that just can't wait to have sex, and a lot seem to end up having regrets about not waiting. I'm not necessarily saying wait until you're married, though that was my plan..but I think it should be special. Not to make a relationship official with someone, not after you've been dating them for two weeks and are "in love", not when you're drunk in the back seat of a car with someone, ect. I don't see anything wrong with virgins my age. In fact, I kind of have respect for them, because there are some moments growing up that make it hard to not have sex, haha. I guess this is just one of those things where people remind you that "life isn't fair". It will never be fair that I didn't get to choose, didn't get to make it special, or with the person I wanted, but life really isn't fair and everything does happen for a reason. I wouldn't have Caiven if it wouldn't have happened, and I wouldn't have reached out to other girls to think through their decisions or remind them of the seriousness there is in having sex. I do want to tell any virgins reading this, don't just give it away. If for no other reason, for the people like me.